it has been a very good month. camping, traveling, freedom from the man....

and i just got the best news. i passed my test!!! it is official. i can now refer to myself as an LMT. i feel really good. i charted a course & ran it & now i have reached that first milestone in my continuing journey as a professional adult with a license to practice medicine! what a responsibility, really. i feel the weight settling on my shoulders. luckily, an LMT has only a limited medical license, so i do not have to shoulder the weight of the world. i can always refer when i feel something is beyond my capacity.

and now i need to get working. i applied for my national cerification today, and filled out my vendor license paperwork for the state.

i have been in somewhat of a state of stasis since i took the exam... like someone had stepped on the clutch, and i was just spinning & spinning.

but now i can let it slip back into gear... get some work done with all of this energy instead of just spinning out.

and i finally have a quiet night to write.

life is good.

and so it goes...

i worked the last two days at the restaraunt. it sure takes a lot out of me. i am so glad that it is only those 2 days right now.

when we arrived home this evening, the house was a wreck. it is amazing to see the amount of chaos that can develop for just three people in a few short interludes.

when i am actually being present here, it is easier to maintain the order, and to have it be natural, instead of an uphill struggle. i can integrate it with little stress.

luckily, dh went out this evening. waiting tables is rather overstimulating for me, and it is good to have some downtime wherein *I* can focus on *me* instead of being in a state of readiness just in case someone might need something of me.... i need to feed my own soul attention & listening to, and she speaks so softly that it takes silence to hear her voice.