the essentials

this ~moving~ is an interesting phenomona to observe. i find myself crystalizing, coalescing out of solution. as the detrius i have collected gets whittled away to that which i really deem necessary, i find myself finding myself... the mirror is being polished, and i am left with a clearer image of who i am.

i am reading, still. but now, i leaf through bodywork related books, rolfing, touch for health, shiatsu. autobiography, instead of novels. and i try to distract myself with projects (but it would be fun to sew myself a cloak just like sun's!) yet i manage to keep my energy focused on those things that really matter- thus, things are going at a pace that seems to be right on course. the movers contract was faxed today. now the circle is cast.

conscious of the limits of time, i try to fill what time i have in the best & most useful way possible. it is interesting to see what that is turning out to be.

tolkiening

There is more in you of good than you know, Child of the Kindly Mist.  Some courage, and some wisdom, blended in measure.  If more of us valued food & cheer, & song above hoarded gold, it would be a merrier world.  But sad, or merry, I must leave it now.  

Thorin Oakenshield, The Hobbit

I was overcome last night with a wonderful realization. I will be living in a place in which the motion of the tides is prominent, and easy to be aware of. This is very important to me in terms of my spirituality, inasmuch as we are tidal creatures, and our lack of attention to this fact leads to many difficulties.

When I am in a situation in which my energy is low, or my outlook less optimistic than usual, I am able to step outside myself, and recognize the ebb & flow. Today, the packing seems impossible. However, I recognize that hormonally, I am in a place of low energy, and introversion. In honoring this, and its temporary nature, I am able to let it go. I can feel it without clinging to it. It is very much like the process of meditation, and letting go of thoughts that arise- yet this is emotional, and so, like water, slower to shift than the mental, airy, realm.

Or perhaps, not necessarily slower to shift. The tides can come in very quickly sometimes. But when the tide is going out, you can't really stop it from happening. You just have to go with the flow.

I feel like I have reached another point on my path, another lookout spot, from which I am gaining a whole new perspective. If I had been raised in a world which honored the cycles more clearly, and taught women the fundamental attunement we have with these cycles, perhaps I would have been able to see more clearly much sooner.

Yet, who knows? Perhaps it is a synergistic process, and this new perspective could only be gained through the various and divergent paths I have walked. Perhaps it only comes with time and experience. However I got here, I am glad to say that this perspective helps me to take myself less seriously, and remember what is really important in life.